Recently I’ve been noticing I get a second wind quite often. Well, I say that and then think to myself “Really? Were they second winds or were they first winds?” I mean, I made it through most days accomplishing some tasks like bartending, grocery shopping, post office, library and bank, you know, every day items. But did I accomplish enough? Obviously not, because there were tasks left over, there always is. So something happens right about bedtime, or even after I have been in bed, the notion to a get project done hits me and I have to do it ‘right now’. Well, that’s dumb, and I mean dumb.
While I was putting plastic on my living room window at 1:00 o’clock on a Thursday morning I realized how silly that was. I had been in bed for two hours tossing and turning and decided I needed to be productive. Had I been as productive as I should have been during the day on Wednesday (or any other day in the last week for that matter) I wouldn’t have had that plastic still sitting on my kitchen table. God knows it wasn’t going to hang itself, I couldn’t find the ‘self hanging’ kind, they must have been all out.
I live in a duplex so my second winds have to be within reason. There are some things I would have liked to do but figured I best not, like putting hangers up on the wall in the basement, or laundry, or vacuuming the floors. I wish I could say getting on the elliptical but unfortunately exercise has not been one of the things I HAVE to get done in the middle of the night. Nope, it’s been things like baking cookies (for those of you who know me this is not a lie but they were not from scratch), doing dishes, putting clothes away, getting my tax stuff together (really?), paying bills and mopping floors. Each time I catch myself doing those things I think of how dumb it is that I’m accomplishing them in the middle of the night.
As I finish this post at 4:00 AM typing away on my slowly dying computer that sounds like a Model T I thank my lucky stars that Best Buy isn’t open or my fourth wind of the night would be driving to get a new computer. My second wind consisted of finishing a book and cleaning the toilet and my third wind was writing this. I wonder if I should seek professional help or perhaps just be sure my first winds are much more productive? God knows I don’t have the time or energy for these late night rendezvous with undone tasks.
Tomorrow (well tonight I guess) I hope to go to bed and not be compelled to get up and do crap I should be accomplishing during the day. That’s probably like asking the neighbors to pick up their dog poop but a girl can hope.